Dear Peter,

Mommy really wants you to know that I would do anything if I can make you cry less. Everybody is telling mommy that you will be fine and you are still adjusting, but it hurts so much seeing you crying. Every morning, stepping out of your room without losing my tears is the most difficult thing for me, I know I should not look back, but I could not help taking a final check on you--you know, baby, mommy really wants to hold you, calm you down and send all your fears away, but I just can't. I am trying, every trick we can think of, getting your the favorite book, visiting the fish before entering the room, talking to you, establishing routine... but nothing seems to work, why?

It has been a week, baby, and I am dying to see your happy smiles while waving bye to mommy. Dear baby, it is just that teacher, who refused to hold you guys even in your upset time, who always said she did not know why you cried, that made mommy decide to transfer you to this new place. I am sure you will like the new teachers--they all seem so nice and gentle, most importantly, caring. I am sure you will be happier here. but it is just hard for you right now, baby, how can mommy tell you I will never leave you, and please do not worry about that for a single second. You know, we all love you. Nowdays you choose to be so clingy to mommy, your dear sister, she cried this morning, saying "Peter loves you most, but not me", just because you did not respond much to her as usual when she was trying to amuse you. She wants you to be happy too.

I am giving up my desire to keep you falling asleep by yourself and sleeping through the night all by yourself, which you have been doing wonderfully ever since you were 5 months old. I am glad you can fall asleep quietly in mommy's bed, knowing mommy is just lying aside you. And last night, you did not wake up to check on my existence, which is also a progress to me, thanks baby. I just want to let you know that no matter how hard this can be, we are with you. We all love you.