Time for good bye?

I guess i am in the mood of writing this morning. Here's one about myself.

Today is the final for me to be offically working here. (I was so lucky to be able to get permission from my always-so-nice boss to get one week ealier leave so that i can have time to get ready for moving.) It felt so hard to realize that I will just leave.. Yesterday while i was walking in the hallway, all of a sudden, i began to recall the first day I came to this country and this university. I was lost in this building and could not find the way back to our apartment and spent almost two hours wondering around in town. Afterwards, I was so scared and cried to my husband that i wanted to go home... Now, I am a mother of two, an almost 4-yr and an almost 1-yr old. Academically, i got 7 papers published and more to come. In a way, I am so proud of myself. But of course, I paid my price---lost contact with most of my girl friends and look like an old lady.

I even felt a little sad this morning thinking of leaving here. I guess i am very sensitive and am a person who likes to nest somewhere forever. In China, I spent 6 years in the same middle school and then went to my college for another 10 years(got bachlor degree as well as PhD, and then worked one year as a lecturer). Then here, I stayed for over 5 years in the same department, only switched my boss due to my former one's retirement. One can conclude from here that I am a person who don't like to change.

Now that it is time for me to move on, I need to move on. But really, I know I love this place and i will miss it.