I had a very bad week last week. Everything seemed to be messed up. I was feeling sick last Sunday and then got a fever on Wednesday. At home, Peter woke up almost every half an hour after 3am every morning and i stayed completely awake since 5:30am; at work, all of a sudden, there were so much to do and it seemed that i could never catch up. I knew i should not push myself too hard, but it was tough not to do anything. I felt like everything was falling on me at the same time, first i had pain everywhere, then i began to feel, that i was going to break, my body was broken. I didn't really know what to do, so i decided to drop something that took my time and energy, but we could use some alternative way--cooking. It was not easy to make up my mind, but i chose to give it a try. How i wish the kids could grow up overnight! I keep wondering whether all the moms are feeling so exhausted , not only physically, but also in mind, like me.